AJ on the Blog !!

Senja...

2008-05-12T15:46:00.003+08:00

Kalau kamu kunang kunang
Jadikanlah aku senja
Kerna bila senja
Kunang kunang berkelip cantik
Dan senja menjadi indah

Hold On Please??

2008-04-12T14:43:00.003+08:00

Why do we need to have a waiting call featured to our cell phone by the way? I find it, very annoying! I was talking to a friend over a phone, suddenly she asked me to hold on as she needed to answer to a call came in…. Huh??!!!! Feeling annoyed, I hung up the phone and text her… ‘Please deactivated the call waiting at least while talking to me’

I think it is disrespectful to answer to another call while you are in a conversation with a friend, why are we so worry about the other person who call us, as it is always an ‘engage tone’… If it important that person will call back.... and in some situation, we will receive a text message inform us on the missed call and we may return the call.

Im alive!!!!!

2007-12-17T16:35:00.001+08:00

It happened again… I’ve lost motivation writing on my blog. It has been more than a month. My close friend told me that he wanted to arrange a funeral service for my blog, buried next to my other friend that he said, dead and buried six feet under, long time ago… he even offered me to crave a tombstone that reads ‘Below this fertile soil, rest a great soul that once told thousand stories and now has given up …for reason only he knows !!!!’

But now I’m back … for reason that only me know… hehehehehehe.

When it rains

2007-11-09T10:59:00.000+08:00

A friend texted me, it reads ; ' AJ we gotta have to cancel our jogging tonite again, it is raining here. Lets have dinner together instead'

In an attempt to comfort her i replied; ' its ok... rain is more important to others like insect, plants and farmer than we jogging around the lake...hehehhe'

She responded with smiley icon :-)

Her old car !!

2007-11-01T12:25:00.000+08:00

‘That’s my old car... somebody bought it already’ My closed friend shouted excitedly. What are the odds having seen your old one you traded in for a new and better car, ‘I miss my old car and I want to see who is the owner’ She told us.

My old ‘friends’ I wonder who are they with now. Do I miss them? Yes!! Sometimes, Do I want to be with them again? Off course for good laugh... - sigh -

Irked Factor !!

2007-10-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

I went out from my place to my office at about 7:30 am, on normal working day, it will take about 45 minutes to reach my office in city centre Kuala Lumpur But this morning was no ordinary morning… I was trapped in horrendous traffic congestion for almost two and a halved hour. I heard it was due to the accident took place in the tunnel towards south at Jalan Tun Razak.

While in my car, listening to the radio, I gave way to almost eight ambulances. What make me irked with some of the drivers was, they are so selfish that every time the ambulances make their way to the scene area, there will be about two or three cars tailing them. Ohh come on... everyone else in a hurry too!!!

But then again do I have hate these people? I can’t help to wonder will I be like them if I were really really really in a hurry.

Diet always starts tomorrow

2007-10-30T13:25:00.000+08:00

We were having lunch at one of the restaurant after a movie, I ordered a Caesar salad with chicken strips and a bottle of mineral water. He ordered a quarter chicken, a bake corn, chips and some salad and a soft drink. He worried about his weight, he was a member of one gymnasium and recently gave up the membership as he told me that he wasted his money on gym membership every month for a year, as he didn’t really go there. He said he has no friend to go with him, but yesterday he told me he wants to rejoin the gym, this time he wants to change to passport membership so that he can go to any gym and come with me and other friends to the gym where we used to go. Hehhehheehhee… I hope he persistent this time.

While having dinner he said ‘this is gonna be my last chip for this year’…. I am starting diet tomorrow.

Gaps between my fingers...

2007-10-30T11:06:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning and reading a message a good friend forwarded to me while I was sleeping. It reads,

‘You know why God created gap between fingers? So that at someday, the one who is made 4 u, comes and fill those gaps by holding ur hands forever’

It was raining and I am feeling blue, I ended up holding my hands together and pretending the other one belongs to someone I love.

I texted my boss and telling him I am taking a day off.

- written on 29th Nov 2007-

Perlukah Mengata Ai?

2007-10-24T12:09:00.000+08:00

Some closed friends of mine, talking about me behind my back. Not that I care, but I really find it so hilarious and very entertaining. How do I know they were talking about me, was when one of them broke the news. What makes thing hilarious was, while they were chatting through YM (which off course didn’t include me… I can’t do that because my office banned the uses of YM in the office) one of them, send me the message that they were talking about me at the moment. I was ‘hated’ by one individual currently for the reason I find it very silly. However for him acted that way towards me, somehow make me wonder, am I such a threat to people or is he just being ‘territorial’ on certain issues.

I once read in science bulletin and watched documentaries on animal kingdom, certain animals do being territorial on their place, on things matter to the survival such as foods and reproduction. Animal like lions, tigers even your cute dog and cat, are so territorial such that whoever enters their area, they chase them out even to different species… My male cat at my parent, spread his urine all over the place he goes, around the house, as a way of telling other male cats ‘hey all…watch out this is my area…don’t dare coming and mess up with me!!’

What if when comes to people like us, do we really have to tell others that this is my place… you have no right to be there and if you do… I gonna hate you. Heheheheh as if hate is such a threat!!! One good friend told me…. ‘Rejeki masing masing lar…. Naper nak kecoh kecoh and rasa terancam gituhh!!’

HARI RAYA TAUN NEH!!

2007-10-23T17:28:00.001+08:00

The feel and the excitement of celebrating aidilfitri taun neh, macam kurengg kalu nak di bandingkan dengan taun taun yang lalu. I guess as me getting older… rasa nak berhari raya sakan , tak lah seghairah dulu dulu. (Tapi I still ambik cuti panjang lar baru masuk opis ari neh. Heheheheh so much not enjoying the raya kan). Tapi seriously sometimes I feel that menyambut hari raya as an event that me celebrate because people closed to me celebrate it. So you join the band wagon. The main reason is (apart from me being a muslim) I want to be with my family… my mum, my dad my sister and brothers …. My nieces and nephews…. And certain cousins that I do miss them. I can’t stop to wonder what if my parents dah takde… Will I still ‘enjoying’ the aidilfitri ?

Me being single at 33, raised in the traditional Malay family, having steady career… kalau orang cakap boleh lar nak hidup kat KL,(tak lah mewah tapi boleh lar nak hidup senang sket …alhamdulilllah) one single question never failed pointed at me, is .. ‘bila nak kahwin nehh Ja?’… I wish I could give them the answer… but it just not appropriate, when comes to morale and values. My parents and family gave up asking me the question long time ago… I guess they now just couldn’t care less, of course there are worried about me mending my own life single handedly in KL…. But I once told them… I can handle my life well …it may not be perfect… but don’t worry I handle things quite well.

My aunts and uncles, whenever they came to my parents house… they are the one keep asking me the same question every year… which somehow make me… felt uncomfortable…. But then come to think of it again, it ok, this wont hurt you. Setahun sekali tak pe lar…. It somehow reminds me of cause and consequences of action that you took. What if I get married and what if I don’t get married….

Rains overshadow the aidilfitri taun neh… which is good though. Sejuk sket umah ai… kotidak kalu tengah hari jek punya lar panas. Relative far and near came to visit us the family…some good friends and school mates, visited me, some adding some extra pound of flesh…hehhehehe, (sibaik I maintain) with extra member of the family which is very good things… They seem happy. Catch up on latest news… gossiping other friends… hehehehehe.

Esok nak cuti dah...

2007-10-10T12:36:00.000+08:00

Malasnyer nak kerja ari nih. This is my last day working before taking 10 days off untuk raya tahun neh. Esok nak p beli barang sikit, baju raya tak beli lagi… nasib baik baju melayu pink I tuh dah siap tempah 4 bulan lepas.

Setakat arini sepanjang bulan ramadhan taun nih… I telah mencipta rekod baru dengan tidak menjejakkan kaki untuk berbuka puasa di hotel. Yes!!! Tapi, I jugek pecah rekod sebab pertama kali dalam sejarah pegi berbuka puasa kat Karaoke…bule? Hehheheheh lepas berbuka melalak… tapi memang best lar…tambah pegi ngan 3 good friends… Ijam, Sheedi n Mac… you all memang meletupsss!!. Di hari yang lain, I dgn kawan dari gym, Jerry and Henry also my good friend Sham pegi berbuka kat Sri Melaka. Pun best jugek …. Kesian Sham kena paksa datang jugek …walaupun penat kerja hahahahahaha.. you are the best!! Lepas tuh tak serik serik datang berbuka lagi, kali nih dekat Tajima café, Menara Axis… Sorry lar, sebabkan I suruh u datang …kete u engkok terlanggar dinding… hemppphhh lesen beli ke Sham?

Also… my gratitude to my special close friend mamu, sebab sudi mengirimkan buah kurma dari bank islam, cantekk you all kotak nyer!!!! Actuallynyer last year pun mamuh ada bagi tapi …. Entah macam mana tak sampai sampai…katanya dispatch dia accident tuh yang tak sampai-sampai …harus lar buah kurma dan kotak tu pun tercampak sekali. Kesian dia.

To good friend yang sudi mengirimkan kad ucapan hari raya… Naimah, Mahmuh, Sam .. terima kasih banyak banyak.

Plannya taun nih nak balik kampung ngan ijam, dah sehaluan car pool aja….I nak balik Sg Siput …dia turun Ipoh. Ok Ijam malam jumaat nanti I datang umah u..ok… siap sedia. Jangan raya ari jumaat sudeehhhh…

‘ SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI YOU ALL’

Koreng nak super power apa?

2007-10-07T14:55:00.000+08:00

Spending my not so precious time with a couple of good friends at this well known lake garden in Kuala Lumpur last night brought out interesting topic that worth mentioned. I was before that watching DVD version of the most popular TV series ‘Heroes’. Just like one of my favorite films the X men Trilogy, Heroes deals with kind of same sort of substance, superpower.

I asked them; What superpower that would you like to have?

Invisibility? Flying like a superman? Super strength? Or Super speed?

One good friend told me, he wants to have the ability of reading someone else’s thought, so that he knows the person he fancies likes him or not. Interesting! Just like Dr X Xavier.

The other friend wants to be like Mystique, who has the ability of metamorphosis, so that he can look like someone to get things done. Look like one gorgeous superstar perhaps, so that he can hit whoever he fancies.

Someone wants to be Cyclops… one good looking male whose posses the power of laser eyes which can kill. Actually he doesn’t really want that killing power but he really wants to look like him. Ha Ha Ha

The rest just don’t know what superpower that they would like to have …. I guess they just happy with whom they are right now.

Long time ago a good friend told me, the only superpower that he wants to have is the ability of thinks wise and acts super wise. Emmmmm, that one super power that I would like to have too, so does the rest of us, I think. It can be done…Really!!!

CINTA.. LOVE... HABIBIE... AMORE

2007-10-05T08:33:00.000+08:00

Kembali menonton cerita CINTA mengundang perasaan yang sama ketika aku mula mula menontonnya. Pertama kali menontonnya, di pengakhiran masa tayangan, air mataku masih belum kering, tersentuh dek scene-scene kasih sayang.

Yang paling mengesankan bagiku, adalah hubungan Dian dan Dhani. Betapa abadinyer kasih yang mereka pupuk dan tumbuh berkembang walaupun aksinya berlatarkan scene-scene pertengkaran. Namun pertengkaran yang tercetus adalah kerana mahukan yang terbaik untuk mereka.

Terkesan sungguh, apabila mendengar lafaz yang ditutur kan oleh Kak B, ‘kadang kadang orang yang paling kita kasihlah yang paling susah untuk kita sayang’.

Realitinya, kadang-kadang pertengkaran antara pasangan yang berkasih, bukan kerana benci tetapi kerana sayang.

Adik janganlah takut pada gelap malam, kakak kan ada lilin
Tidurlah adikku kerana kakak akan menjagamu

Cinta Melly & KD / Jac & Misha

Menatap jalan yang menjauh
Tentukan arah yangg ku mau
Tempatkan aku pada satu
Peristiwa yang membuat hati lara

Di dekat engkau aku tenang
Sendu matamu penuh tanya
Misteri hidup akan kah menghilang
Dan bahagia di akhir cerita

Cinta tegarkan hatiku
Tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
Naluriku berkata
Tak ingin terulang lagi
Kehilangan cinta hati
Bagai raga tak bernyawa

Aku junjung petuamu
Cintai dia yang mencintaiku
Hati yang dulu belayar
Kini telah menepi
Bukankah hidup kita
Akhirnya harus bahagia

CintaBiar saja ada
Yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
Bagai manapun hidup
Memang hanya cerita
Cerita tentang meninggalkan dengan ditinggalkan

Cinta…..

You all beli lar Album nih...

2007-10-03T09:42:00.000+08:00

Masa pegi shopping at SOGO with a few friends that i knew not so long ago which I feel that knowing them for many years (tatau lar kenapa), I saw a poster of Anuar Zain promoting his latest album. Spontaneously I thought that I’ve got to have this one. Despite from all the articles by entertainment journalist that he is not being patriotic enough by getting all the songs in his latest album composed by Indonesian composers, I did the contrary; Not that I am not patriotic (patriotic to that journalist’s view is arguable though) but I bought that because I always admire his soulful voice which none of the local singer can imitate…yeah there are a couple of ‘wanna bes’… but it just not the same.

Every time I enter my car since the day I bought the album, I never change to any CDs and listen to any radio station, which I normally did. I am so hooked. I don’t know about others but I think what Anuar did was worth and justifiable. I think he spent quite a fortune to get all his song composed… and the quality walla!!! Love it so much!!!!

I've told this to a number of my closed friend I bought Anuar’s latest album, I recommended to do the same.. Yeah there are some responses that asking me to burn and rip the CDs and share it with them… I’m telling you babe, Ohhh My God!! Can you be more pathetic than that…. Go get yourself an original one.. kesian Abang kita susah-susah melalak menjerit dalam studio. Tapi who can say NO to this one nice and adorable friend who work in brickfield and the other one who threatened me if you wanna come to my potluck berbuka puasa this Saturday…must bring the album’. Please my friend in brickfield tangkap my friend in Puchong who threatened me… hehehehehehe. *I am sorry Nuar, I did my part telling them to buy their own copy, but these particular friends are so hard to resist and say NO!

One song that really makes me ‘feeling-feeling’ is the one called ‘KETULUSAN HATI’. I lost count on how many times I repeat the song over and over again just to get the ‘rasa and batin’ … agaknyer bila lar redbox or KTV nak installed lagu nih …so that I can melalak nanti nanti… yea Bub, Jemi, Mamu, Era, Sham, Ijam, Shidee, Roy…. Yea you all. I akan nyanyi lagu nih walaupun koreng mengumpat I kata pitching larikkkkkk ke longkang bagai…. I pedulikan heheheh. Nah terimalar lagu ini ku nyanyi kan khooss untuk kamu semua, especially to you! Ya untuk awak :-) … . Ada yang kata lagu ini bermesej ketuhanan… To me this song is so Istimewa!!

KETULUSAN HATI

Cintaku tak berdusta

Tak mengenal ingkar

Tak kenal nestapa

Cintaku hanya indah

Hanya bahagia untuk selamanya

Apa yang kurasakan ini

Persembahan untuk dirimu

Kau biarkan tak mengenal waktu

Tak mengenal puitis

Hanya tulusnya hati

Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu

Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Cintaku tak berdusta

Tak mengenal ingkar

Tak kenal nestapa

Tak ada seribu janji

Hanya bahagia untu selamanya

Apa yang kurasakan ini

Persembahan untuk dirimu

Kau benarkan kasihku

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu

Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati

Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu

Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

Apa yang kurasakan ini

Persembahan untuk dirimu

Kau dengarkan kasihku

Ooooooo

Mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu

Tak mengenal puitis hanya tulusnya hati

Mencintaimu tak mengenal ragu

Keyakinan hatiku hanya untuk dirimu selalu

MEKONOMEN !!!

2007-09-27T10:50:00.000+08:00

My close friend asked me, naper guna ‘I’ in my posting? Dia cakap tak jantan lar guna I. gunalar ‘aku’. I spontaneously answered him, Jantan? me no komen.

I wonder what is the best way to bahasakan diri kita when talking to people around us. Kalau kita guna bahasa inggeris oklar, there will be no problem as we can always use I and U, in any situation and to any people regardless who they are. Tapi kalau bahasa Melayu macam mana? Some people might see it as trivia, when selecting ‘ganti nama diri’ while talking, tapi to me it show how do we really feel about us and the person who we talk to. For me for example, when talking to my parents and my family member I will use my nama manja. hehehehe (no need to mention what, it might cause injury to the heart as some people are so cruel out there. I hate those people - note that hate is softly uttered)

Sometimes, it is tricky for me to choose nak guna 'aku' ker 'I' ker 'saya' ker to my new acquaintance which potentially gonna be my future friends. When comes to this kind of situation I think I’ll choose 'I', because to me it is safe, then bila dah kenal dah bagai bagai, barular I slowly converting it to ‘aku’ …neverlar I guna ‘saya’…hahahahahaha. The truth about using ‘aku’, it shows closeness and how long I know some people. I know some friend who keep using 'saya' bila berbahasa… even after so many times meeting him and we kind of clicked… I just don’t know how to react. Sometimes it feel weird as I am using ‘aku’ dia guna ‘saya’ and softly call me as my first name… arghhhhhh!!!!

Tapi kalau kita nak bercinta cintan … kita nak bahasakan apa ya ngan partner kita? nyeh nyeh nyeh…Awak? Saya? Wak? Kita? I? U? … hehehehehhe… tricky kan? Susah jugek nak pilih… sebab I rasa the selection of ganti nama, will show how do we feel about the person we talk to. Me guna …….. , (malu nak cakap, nanti kena gelak)

** Sapa Guna Mek & Nok …. Tatau!!!!!!

Best giler pegi sky trekking ...

2007-09-23T13:36:00.000+08:00

Sky trekking? ..... kalau translate literally, menjejak langit... hehehehe , tapi memang best giler. Lepas breakfast at nine, terus pecut pegi bukit cherakah. Ada ke orang pegi bukit cherakah lagi zaman nih.... Seingat i the last time i pegi bukit cherakah was like when i was doing my preparatory studies kat ITM ... 14 years ago.. ( i am old) .... a fren i just knew , invite me to join the gang to pegi panjat pokok and bergayut... It wasn't sound like a good activity mulanyer ... but then.... why not, dah lama tak pegi manjat pokok kan... about time lar, revisiting gud ole time...

Me blogging again...

2007-09-23T12:42:00.000+08:00

Dah berapa kali I create blog pun i tak ingat dah. Everytime i do that, mesti tak tahan lama. Esok nak bukak balik dah lupa password.. kadang kadang guna bahasa melayu, kadang kadang guna bahasa Inggeris. Kali nih i bantai guna bahasa campur campur.... kalau pejuang bahasa tahu nih musti depa komen i penjaras bahasa... sah sah i kena kutuk kow kow punye sebab merosakkan bahasa. Nak kat bahasa melayu pun bukan nak kata bahsa inggeris pun ...lagiklar tidak.

The truth is, kalau nak betul betul mengekspresikan rasa, feeling, emosi, i lebih suka gunakan bahasa melayu sebab pada i lebih senang nak luahkan... ye lar dah dibesarkan dalam famili yang mimpi pun dalam bahasa melayu. Bahasa Inggeris tuh, bukan lar tak boleh cakap dan tulis, boleh.... walaupun masa SPM dulu dapat C4, tapi kalau bersembang dengan i over the phone, mungkin yang belum pernah jumpa i akan ingat i foreigner dari negeri mat salleh... hehhehehehe... slang mesti lebey... vocab limited.

Jadi untuk posting ini dan mungkin posting yang akan datang ...i guna bahasa yang i selalu guna hari hari....